How I found God, and how he gifted me with the best Woman in the World.
I started going to Church at a young age, my Mom used to take me and my brother every Sundays. At this point my Dad was not a Christian, and didn't want anything to do with it. When I was born the doctors found out I had a disability called Diastrophic Dysplaysia, which is a form of Dwarfism. I had all kinds of problems when I was born, such as spinal and feet problems, because of these problems, I had to have lots of surgery to put things right. Mom used to worry about me a lot, because of these major surgery problems, so she used to take me to Church to be prayed for. After a few years my I started having less and less problems with my feet and back, and didn't need any more treatment on them.

At the age of 10-12 Mom started taking me to a new Church, a couple of years later my Dad decided to come along with us, after a couple of weeks he gave his heart to the Lord. A few years later when I turned 15 I started loosing interest in the whole Church thing and didn't want anything to do with God, so my Mom said I could stop going to Church at 15 because it would be my own choice. So at 15 I left Church and started getting into bad stuff, such as listening to Black Metal, getting into the bad crowds and hanging out with the wrong people, I also used to take some drugs every now and then. I used to think that 'Love' was a load of trash and Love was weak, I was full of Hate I guess.
Few Years Later...
At the age of 20 things started changing for me, just after Christmas I was in my room listening to some Cradle of Filth CD's then for some odd reason I got curious and started looking up some Bible Verses online. For a few weeks after that I just sat in my room reading an online Bible to myself, then I started thinking seriously about what I was doing and how I was dissing God, and then I started feeling really bad about what I was doing to myself and the people around me. So one night I got really mad with myself about what I was doing, I took my Cradle of Filth CD and smashed it with my hands, I did this near my brother, he was stunned and didn't know what to say, I also cut my hands in the process of smashing the CD. After this all happened I prayed to God and told him how sorry I was for what I had done.

Since then lots of good things have been happening in my life, I found a new job with good pay, and I enjoy it. I also set up this website Christian-RPG which all Christian Gamers can come to communicate with each other online. I have never felt so good and I know lots of people are happy for me.
The Girlfriend Part
I always thought I would never find a girlfriend in my life. Why? Because I didn't think anyone would take me because of my shape and size, it used to upset me a lot, and I used to feel rejected sometimes by Girls, even though I didn't show it. I never knew what real love was either, and never know what it was to feel like to be loved by someone.

I started Playing Final Fantasy XI online in 2005 and the game is amazing, I have met lots of new friends on there. Anyways, one day when I was playing FFXI I was in a team helping a friend with fighting a Monster for his Artifact Armour Quest. My friend invited this girl called Azuu which I had never met before, she seemed cool, we said hello and stuff, I could not make out some of the things she was saying because she was talking in French a lot. Hehe. This was the first time I had met Azuu.

Since that day every time we saw each other we waved to one another and said hello and asked how things are. By this time I felt kind of weird about her, I knew there was something special about this woman even though I didn't know her that well. We started talking more, and I used to ask her friend how she was doing, hoping she was ok. I knew her like this for about 4-5months.

Next thing, I was camping a Monster with a friend because I needed this rare/ex item that dropped off the Monster, but the monster only pops every 2 Hours, so you have to be quick to claim it before someone else does. So I asked my friend how Azuu was while we was waiting for the Monster to Pop, and he said she is fine, and then he asked her to come and help us camp this Monster, she came over!

We camped this monster for weeks maybe a month, we just didn't get the item drop... We camped it together just the two of us, that's how we got to know each other really well, then one day I told her I was a dwarf, (I really liked her at this time but I was scared to ask her to date me in case she rejected because I was a dwarf) when I told her she was like 'Awh cool that's sweet' then she was curious about me, asking me questions about my size and stuff, it was cool to talk to her about it. A week later I told her I had feelings for her and I thought she was a very nice person. I was expecting the worse, expecting her to say something like she wouldn't date me because I'm a dwarf. But at first she didn't say anything, so I didn't say much about it after that.

For some weeks later we got closer and closer to each other, then started to love each other loads. By this time I started learning what love is through Valerie she thought me a lot just by showing her love for me. We had been dating for about a Month, then I booked tickets to go over and see her. The wait to go see her was like 89 days, it was long and hard but if you really love someone and want to be with them your always going to make it through the waiting, no matter how hard it is, we also had God to support us at all times.

The day finally came and we was super excited about seeing each other for the first time. When I got to the Airport and saw her with her Dad waiting for me I was like 'Wow' is this beautiful woman mine, I was super happy and never been so happy in my life, as soon as we got in the car I could feel her love for me, the way she was looking at me and smiling at me, I had never seen anything so nice before.

We got back to her place and we was glued to each other all the time, Hehe. Her Parents and sister are awesome too, God has really blessed her family, I like them a lot, kind and caring, and I feel so happy to be apart of it.

While I was at Valerie's place, this is when I first experienced what Love is, I never thought love would be something so nice and warming, she has taught me a lot about love, and I have never loved someone so much before. In the near future me and Val will be together, Married with Children and I'm sure God is going to bless us both as a family.

We would like you to keep us in your prayers so God with continually bless us both day after day. =)
Small Update On My Life
Its been almost a year since I updated my testimony, I would just like to update people on the happenings in my life. Most of you will know I have been living with Valerie for 6 Months in Canada, and I'm happy to announce that we both are now Engaged! We will be getting married around May time 2008. Thank you people who have been praying for our relationship, it means the World to the both of us. =)
Don't Be Ashamed Of Your Beliefs!
Over the past year I have been learning a lot from music! Yes its amazing how God can use awesome music bands to spread his word around. My favourite band Underoath have helped me a lot lately with their lyrics, although some of the lyrics you don't hear well from their singing, but when you read them up they are very 'in your face'. Underoath have shown me not to be afraid of showing my love for God.

"Christian I Stand! Not Afraid Of My Beliefs!"

One other thing, if someone who is disabled / a dwarf that just read my Testimony. Don't think that there is not a woman out there that wont take you and love you for who you are, because there is someone in this world for everyone. =)

God Bless,
Phil.

To Be Continued...